cheer up....can i?
Sunday, November 30, 2008
thx to ppl hu encourage mi and console mi...but i really dun tink i can cheer up if i continue to struggle in poly like this...poly is seriously nt the place for mi...
week 7 has passed...i feelin i m driftin away frm my classmates or rather i m avoidin them...anyting can happen in my class...classmates r ezly offended...n conflicts between some ppl...backstabbin oso sumtime occurs(experience frm last sem)...there's really no one u can trust...n all of a sudden...height juz bcome a issue to mi...n i hate it when my classmate say that i m a nerd cause i do my hw n is able to ans the lecturer qn in class...worse still...once a guy in my class say i have a nerd face n say i shld admit tat i m a nerd n juz b a nerd instead of denyin it...
tot i could cope at 1st...but after my gpa came out...i knew i cant reach uni de...if my parents have really respected my decision, i tink i would b much btr off nw...my mum was so influenced by my aunts' words regardin my decision of choosin my choice of tertiary education...nw i cant even complain...they juz blame mi sayin that my current course is my 1st choice...n i hav no rights to complain...do all the choices i made matter when the onli choice i wanted can onli stay in my heart?
my aunts bought my sis a ex n good lappy...while my dad onli sponsor mi a cheap n lousy lappy that's givin mi headache...n my mum is allowin my sis to go NAFA after she graduate frm poly...life is so unfair...
this sem oso nt a very good sem bcoz my ah gong hav been hospitalised for the 3rd times...today juz went to visit him...can c that he is happy to c mi coz he havent seen for very long liao...bcoz of my aunts...i refuse to have dinner wif my family at my aunts' hse everydae so he dun get to c mi...coz my aunts r sure to find fault wif mi everytime i go there...abit guilty liao...n nw my aunts juz out of blue tell us nt to trouble my mum to buy tings for us coz she has to take care of ah gong...but in the 1st place they r the lazy ones la...i n my sis always bought our tings ourselves...but my aunts r like even toilet papers oso trouble us to buy for them...seein my ah gong really make mi feel very xin suan n guilty...haiz...hope he will still b around next reunion dinner...at least that is when he can c mi...
its a long post...but at least i feel btr nw...at least i will feel btr n comfortable for next week mst...gd luck all my sec. frens in SP for ur mst...dun intend to wish myself coz i noe luck will nt help mi pull through this time round...
-- zhaoxuan--
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